Thing You Can't Choose In Life

Before you proceed, do you have anything in mind that suits the title? Here I assume that you don't, so I'm going to tell you about my answer : Mother(actually should be parent but since its special occasion, this will do)

To be honest, my family seldom celebrate any occasion or festival, except for Chinese New Year & Christmas for the recent few years. Harvest Festival, National Day, Easter, Mother's day & Father's day are just like all other normal days, and the only difference is that me & my brother won't have to go to school, that's all. However, as far as I remembered, during all these occasion, we were always by their side, which I'm grateful that we did(except for this year, but I'm certain that they won't want me to waste such money just to go back for few days & celebrate with them).

This post, is dedicated to my one & only one beloved mum, who I call her mama ever since I learned how to speak. At first, I planned not to do anything this time just as all previous years except giving her a call & greet her "Happy Mother's Day". My decision changed after I read some of others' post, especially the 1 from Jaevon where hers inspired me most. Hers reminds me of a piece of essay I wrote, where I compare myself with kids from other families. I was not allowed to watch TV when they did during night time, I was forced to have oatmeal while others are having coke & burgers, I was sent to music lessons while others are playing PS/Gameboy, and I was not given a handphone & PC/laptop till I finished my SPM(although this is my dad's decision). But till the end, I realize that all the things she did is for my own good and made me special & more successful compared to all those spoiled brat who are destined to fail in their future. This essay was considered kinda unique compared to others who wrote how happy they are when their mother bought them something or how good their mother is for not scolding/caning or not treating them as "slave".

Now, as I recall back, most of the things she had done is still very fresh in my mind(although some I can't remember why she did that).

I still remember / realized:

• The trouble & time she spent to send & pick me up from all those tuitions and extra class(stopped after Form 2)
• How hard it is to cook every meal for us due to all our different likes & dislikes
• How she defended me a few times from being expelled by my dad for doing something terribly wrong
• Why she caned me(too frequent till I can't recall back all the thing I did till she caned me)
  
• Why she slapped me(this, I can remember as it only happened once)
• The times we cried together when watching some touching episodes
• How difficult it is for her to do all the house chores

and many many more.....

Final words from me :

"I am really thankful for being the fastest & strongest among millions of my sibblings to be able to win the race & win the fight to receive the greatest prize in my life. Condolence to all of you who were dead as a result of losing the fight."

Mama, I loved you, I love you and I will love you forever.

Happy Mother's Day for all the great mum in the world!

Tony will always remember everything you did for me

Farewell

Supposingly today's class was your last lecture with us.
So, thanks for everything u gave me (or us).

Thanks for the lullaby during class.
Thanks for waking me up with your sudden "emo" shout.
Thanks for giving tests on something you didn't teach.
Thanks for destroying the meaning of "PUBLIC HOLIDAY" by giving replacement class.
Thanks for always disregard my questions.

Now, sincerely from me, Goodbye!

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Halt! You are going to have 1 more extra class to discuss the test paper, are you not?

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Tony you should stop complaining so much

First Of May - Bee Gees

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
we used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
the day I kissed your cheek and you were gone.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry come first of May.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
do do do do do do do do do...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
some one else moved in from far away.

Tony is enjoying on First of May, the labour day

Equivalent Exchange

"If one wishes to gain something, one must present something of equal value"

Let me take some examples :

If you want to buy something, you have to exchange it with money, which is equal to the price of the item.

If you want to score good results, first you have to strive & study hard for it.

If you want to do anything, you will have to sacrifice a portion of your time in doing it.

If you want to generate energy, you will need a resource or another energy to be converted.

"There must be sacrifices & gains in everything, and this is the concept of 'equivalent exchange' which is also the theory of life"

However, if we look at it from a different perspective, it will be a bit contrasting and confusing.

Although it is an undeniable fact that to obtain something, one must first sacrifice or exchange something which is worth the price. However, is this always true that after you sacrificed, you are guaranteed to obtain what you want? There are also some people out there, who are granted what they want since their birth. Do you think this is fair?

To tell you the truth, it is. For what you sacrificed, you obtained something, although most of the time its not what you want. Instead, you gained something better, which will prove to be more useful in your future, which is experience. In the latter case, one will eventually loses everything if he/she continues to take things for granted. This can be interpreted from the fundamental rule, where after you obtained something, you will lose something, its just that the order is reversed.

Tony actually learned something useful from watching anime

Love At First Sight

I remember a friend of mine asked me whether I believe in love at first sight & I told her that love at first sight only shows that one person is attracted by the person's physical appearance.

Is my definition correct? I said so because you never meet that person & you saying that you fell in love with him/her just by looking at his/her face without knowing his/her personality, behavior, habits or likes & dislikes? So, the only thing I can think of is only the physical appearance fascinated you when you say that you fell in love at first sight.

Here's the definition by wikipedia :

Love at first sight is an emotional condition whereby a person feels romantic attraction for a stranger on the first encounter with the stranger. The term may be used to refer to a mere sexual attraction or crush, but it usually refers to actually falling in love with someone literally the very first time one sees him or her, along with the deep desire to have an intimate relationship with that person. The stranger may or may not be aware that the other person has any such notion, and may not even be aware of the other person's presence (such as in a crowded place). Sometimes two people experience this phenomenon towards each other at the same time, usually when their eyes meet.

That may be the case, but what if you fell in love at first sight, and after you know him/her deeper, you found out that he/she is really the right person for you? (looks like I'm contradicting my own view on this)

Here's another interesting opinion about this matter, have a look at this:
http://www.mydearvalentine.com/love-at-first-sight/

So, what say you? Do you agree with what I said or you believe in love at first sight?
Any opinion or comment from you is most welcomed. (should I use is or are?)
**except from the person who asked me the question in the first place. I've heard yours & I
know you believe it.

Tony fell in love at first sight? nah...

Uncertainties..

I need to update this blog - but what can I post?

I must finish all the homework - but how much can I accomplish?

I am required to buy something - but do I have the time to go?

I want to sleep - but how long am I able to?

I look forward for latest anime - but when will it be released?

I miss my home - but when can I go back?

I am longing to see my parents - but why the air ticket is so expensive?

I am hungry - but what should I eat & how much can I eat?

I dislike classes - but what should I do? skip classes?

I desperately need holiday(s) - but why the schedule is so packed?

I hate homework - but why the lecturers keep on giving?

I wanted to see my old friends - but why they are so far apart?

I wish to go shopping - but where can I go?

I feel like gambling - but who can gamble with me? Genting Casino?

I hope for more allowance - but how? part time job? lottery?

And LASTLY,

I want to fly - but without AirAsia, can I do it alone?

Tony hid something, try find it out

原来爱上贼 - Catch Me Now

All of a sudden, I found something interesting in this series which I'm watching currently. So, I will do some promotion for TVB here.

I really have to commend the scriptwriter, this part is really funny + remarkable.

**for those who can't understand cantonese or can't read chinese, sorry..

p/s : sorry Ms. Chan, maybe this is a bit out of topic, but once in a while, its still acceptable right?


Tony really enjoys TVB drama series.

The One Who Slacks

Finally, its the long awaited weekend - a-one-day-prolonged weekend. Should I actually be happy about it? Should I feel excited? Or should I at least feel relaxed? Nope, none of those came into my mind since there are piles of homework especially from Calculus & Physics (THANKS Mr Lee & Ms Say!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!!)

Despite the fact that there are so so many homework yet to be done, I am still my old self, who will put enjoyment to the top priority. Homework? Nah, they will be done when its time. Nothing to worry about it. Another inconvenient truth to be revealed here is that I was awake just a while ago (approximately 5.00 p.m) after a short "hibernation" from around 1.00 a.m the same day. Finally I recovered all the sleep deficit accumulated from all week long. What a great sensation to have.

Tony hopes he can "hibernate" always