Naked Ambition

Reading because of the title? you'll be disappointed because its just a movie title. Yes, its a hong kong movie, aired in 2003 starring louis koo, eason chan, nikki chow & jess sum. I'm watching entirely because of nikki & jess.

Its been long time since i've seen you, even your latest movies & dramas i did not watch. But you know that i still love you right? continue the hard work, i'll be supporting you always.

Nikki, I L♥VE YOU!!!

Regret....

I'm starting to feel that I chose the wrong course...main reason? (reason 3 could be boring if you're not in mechanical engineering course)

1. after going through 4 semesters, with 3 big projects in 3 of the semesters, I failed all 3....

2. It seems like i'm not fated enough with all those machineries, especially parts...i'm trying to like them but obviously they dislike me...

3. scanned through the core units that I have to take next year in Third year, there is :

i) Mechanics of solids 2 <- this one still okay, since I'm doing pretty well in mechanics of solids 1 this sem.

ii) System dynamics and control, prerequisite : Engineering Dynamics <- in which i did really badly last sem. i'm terribly bad at dynamics >.>

iii) Fluid mechanics <- still okay, thermofluid this sem is not that hard.

iv) manufacturing Engineering (should be okay seeing the assumed knowledge course & prerequisite)

v) Engineering management <- sort of continuation from Professional engineering 1 (one of the 3 that i mentioned above). furthermore, there will be essays & reports writing!! i'm doomed....

vi) Mechanical design 2 (continuation from mechanical design 1, another one of the 3)....

vii) Materials 2 <- continuation from materials 1 (almost killed by it last sem, next year will have to see that 2-inch-thick-book again....)

viii) thermal engineering <- thermodynamics stuffs, if i were to say, this will be the easiest UoS (unit of study) in sem 2, even though it is really hard to begin with...

In short, it seems like i'll be half dead in the first sem, and completely screwed in the 2nd sem...at this rate, i'm not sure whether i can make it into honours program in the 4th year...don't even say trying to achieve first class....

Ahhhhh I really do regret now...I should have just taken Science, majoring in physics or maybe chemistry although i don't like chemistry as much...or maybe follow my bro to be a pharmacist...damn it, i really hate engineering now.

sorrow of the helpless....

Went out for lunch, without bring my phone along. By the time I got back, there is a miss call notification, and that was already half hour ago. I called back, not knowing what happened, and the first call has those sort of signal disturbance, we can't hear each other clearly. hanged up, and call again. calling failed for like 3 to 4 times, diverted to voice mails another couple of times, i guess she's calling me back at the same time, and that continued for like another 6-7 mins.

By the time the call finally got through with clear sound, she sound so anxious and by her voice, I can tell that she's been crying (and still crying). As she tells me her problem (computer work related), I tried my best providing solution based on what i know, as well as some Googgling. Unfortunately, at the end of the 50 mins conversation, problem could not be solved, and she has to start doing all over again.

I feel terribly sorry and I don't even know how to console her in midst of her panic....guess i'm still inexperienced in handling this kind of situation especially in front of a weeping counterpart. Yes, I will feel extremely bad seeing a girl cry, no matter the reason is because of me or not (of course, I'll feel even worse if its because of me). Even in movies/dramas, seeing the actresses cry made me feel bad.

Even until now, thinking back that she could have been crying for 30 mins before I called her back, I feel really sorry. Especially when I can't be of any help at all...If I could be of any help to her at the very least, I won't feel this bad but now.......I can only hope that she'll be fine soon. God bless her. Sorry for being so helpless.........

The Story Of 2 Idiots

Well, I'm back...sort of, just to tell a super short story about 2 idiots.

Idiot 1 & Idiot 2 were close friends (I wont say they're best friend, they are not at least from my perspective). One day, Idiot 1 suddenly says to Idiot 2 : "huh? what? who are you?"

Idiot 2, being a considerate friend, just leave Idiot 1 alone guessing he's has some personal problem troubling him. But Idiot 1 has been doing that for days, and Idiot 2 has grown impatience, and when Idiot 1 did the same thing again, Idiot 2 decided to reply : "What, i'm not talking to you. By the way, do I know you?" Idiot 1 then say : "no I don't know you, and not planning to either".

Thereafter, Idiot 1 & Idiot 2 has never talk to each other again, nor do anything together, for a minimal of 4 years (if my memory serve). The end~~~

Memories

Recently, I've been reversing my daytime, i.e sleeping at 11am & wake up at 6pm?

But, thanks to that, I was able to obtain back lots of memories where some of them had started to fade.

I stare at the 6.40 am sky here, it reminds me of the days where I woke up at 5.30 am, prepare everything & went downstairs to wait for the school bus. For your info, they are the same : 6.40 am at KL & 5.30 am at SDK.

I went to the playground late at night, that's the place where tonnes of events had occurred starting 1st July 2008 until today, almost the end of 2009. It was the place where we celebrated countless birthday : Sarah's, Wei Khang's, Yat Seng's but sorry, not Calvin's for yours were held at "another" playground. There were many more birthday celebrations which I can't recall at the moment as well as other events like the mooncake festival this year.

There will be another week for me here, Home Alone 5, before everyone is back for a 4 days 3 night BTN camp. Still have a few things to be done :

1. Buy 2~3 "white coloured" short sleeve shirt as in our secondary school uniform (but I know no one will get those as well as myself).

2. Buy 2~3 "white coloured" t-shirt with collar (where the heck can I find these?)

3. Complete & return those forms to KBU, to get back the so called "security deposit" but t.The money won't go to me T.T The sad thing is, I have to return my student card together with it which means from the moment I returned it, I can't get student price for movies anymore.

4. Fill in the BTN participant form (seriously I haven't even go through the form yet)

5. Start packing my luggage, as I am GOING HOME soon!! But still, there will be a few drawbacks : No McD, blackout as frequent as twice a day, lousy cinema (I'll miss GSC), no FREE internet connection, bla bla bla...

**A gentle reminder to any KBU's JPA scholar batch 2008 who so faithfully following my blog until now and at a same time haven't done items 1 to 4, please do so ya.

BTW, when is the stupid psycho briefing?? Don't tell me its gonna cause trouble to me again. Anytime before the camp is definitely okay for me, but I dunno bout Ming Chai them, if it were sooner than 6th Dec. But, don't you dare set it AFTER 14th Dec. Remember this.

Nature City, here I come. 2 more weeks to go

Octoberfest

Well, on top of everything, this blog has officially became a personal blog, no longer an academic blog. **and the update will be as little as possible, or sometimes none.

I hope i spelled the name correctly, Octoberfest. Well, I went there because Frankie told me there's a beer fest where 1 small bottle only cost rm1.00 (For OneCard member & you have to bring 2x 50 sen coin).

As always, for I'm not so good with alcohols (and they don't like me much as well), I ended up "drunk"? Not that serious actually, its just that my face went red, as well as my eyeballs (the extreme red as if I didn't sleep for 3 days). My head is producing beats with my heart, lupp dupp lupp dupp~~

For Edwin & Chang Vin, ended up buying the irresistable pointy hat, which made Shun Ling looks like a witch (so they say).

Well, maybe this bottle of beer can be considered as a celebration. What celebration? The END of my AUSMAT course la, abuden? There are 4 more days to go, to the beginning of the External TEE exam (a bit redundant actually, as TEE stands for Tertiary Entrance Examination).
On the 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th and 11th November, and THAT'S IT!! I'm DONE!! I'll be completely FREE after the 11th paper, which is Applicable Math. But, if you know me well enough, I'm considered free as soon as I finished the Chemistry paper on the 6th. Muahahaha

So, what's gonna be? Seeing everyone in Australia next year? Or....CHOI!! touch wood...
Allrighty, so its time to finally do some revision, the final struggle. Hopefully can study something, before I head over to House #71 for DoTA (=.=""), if the alcohol didn't take me down that's it.

Tony will still include this mini writing part for future posts :p

Obnoxiousness

ob·nox·ious [ob nókshəss, əb nókshəss]

adjective

extremely unpleasant, especially in a way that offends people
SYN offensive:
obnoxious behaviour ; a thoroughly obnoxious little man ; obnoxious odours

1st, this is for Sarah, for copying her latest style of posting - sorry & thanks.

Allright, you don't have to confirm with me or tell me again, I know that I was, I am, and I will be like that. You are not the 1st to tell me about this and I know you won't be the last. But as I always say to Jas, "old habits die hard" then she'll sigh and she'll say something to make me feel better. I forgot what she always say but the main point is, I knew I am like that.

Sometimes, I act such way unconsciously, even I myself didn't know that my actions/words are causing such heavy damage, until someone tell me, hint me about it. They really have my gratitude here for letting me know.

But however (such redundancy), sometimes I really do it intentionally, for I know (I thought I know) that some people can receive it, and then they'll shoot me back and soon, everyone will "sampuk" and join together, finally we all laugh. Its still a way of interaction isn't it? Or rather, I would say a miscommunication? Some people only pretend to be able to receive it, put up a fake smile maybe, but deep inside them, they're already cursing, with the strong intend to throw a punch right?

So, the lesson of the story? Do not assume so much? Do not be deceived by a person's reaction? Think twice before saying anything? Always say something nice(even if its not what you really want to say)? Nah, like I care. Whatever you all out there want to think of me, its up to you. Who am I with such power to change your thinking? I'm not a psychologist, I'm not your father, I'm just a nobody to you. All I can do here is only one thing, whether you accept it or not, again, its your choice. SORRY.

Tony will not be able to change. Take it, or leave it. He won't care

Kena Tag

1. What have you been doing recently?

Juz like all the usual holidays : eat, sleep, laptop time, & most importantly, defecate =.=

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?

Most probably not…offline mode, yes

3. What happened at 10am today?

I was still sleeping, likely dreaming about someone, or something

4. When did you last cry?

Yesterday? When I reached the ending of 当狗爱上猫

5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?

I think I hav to say yes…coz I once told my friend tat

6. What do you want in life now?

I want…….. “something”

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?

Of course an umbrella, especially since my umbrella is so stylish XD

8. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

Those forward emails from bunch of friends?

9. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?

Its once complicated lolz…

10. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?

Hell yeah…junkai’s slippers. Those ****** ****** took both pairs of my slippers out without asking me

11. What was the last movie you caught?

Accident – dun bother go watch…

12. What are you proud of?

I am proud of myself ; for defeating millions of my sibling & proves myself to be the strongest & fastest (this is getting cliché)

13. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?

31-07-08 “Halo^^.long time no see o.me at hr ok ok ah.hehe.u le?u at whr now o?”

From weishing J

14. What was the last song you sang out loud?

相逢何必曾相识

15. Do you have any nicknames?

A lot tu…thorny, stony, tong s****h (tat was long long long ago) not after I know Tong…haha

16. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?

This is crazy…from nailin juz now

“Hello kbu-ers! Welcome back some of u! I know some of u still not back yet. Do travel safe. N for those havin oral tomoro. Do well. Remember, your confidence is in Christ! =) so no need scared. Last weekend we had donut Sunday n it was awesome!not jus the donuts, but wad is even more awesome was tat gary had made the most important n best decision in his life to give his life to jesus! I praise god for that. The bible say, when one person is added into god’s family, the whole heavens rejoices! =) are we cathin up this Friday night?” phew….

17. What time did you sleep last night?

If u ask bout last night, then it should be 10pm…bt woke up at 11 sumting…then resume only today 7am

18. Are you currently happy?

Actually yes, but the mood spoilt by those f***er who stole my slippers

19. Who gives you the best advice?

Depends, coz sometimes the best advisor(my dad) will tell me sumting tat I dun agree

20. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

Err nop…mayb can try

21. Who did you talked to on the phone last night?

Nobody called & I din call last nite

22. Is something bugging you right now?

Where to eat dinner???

23. Who is the last person to make you laugh?

Nabilah!!! Her reaction after I scare her juz now is really laugh-able

24. Do you like yourself?

When I look into the mirror, yes (lolz & swt)

25. You want $5 or $10?

Ask me again if u come with better value

26. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?

Most of the time when I did/said something stupid

27. Who is your best best best friend?

Do I hav one?

28. What will you do if you like that boy?

Boy ah? Approach him & say I like u la!!!

29. Who are your favourite stars?

Dunno how to see stars

30. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?

I did, but not anymore

31. Do you had even stead before??

Wat’s stead in ur context???

32. What type of boy do you like?

woei song’s siblings??? (yes, including his sister aha)

33. Now are you single/attached?

Attached to my laptop…

10 people to tag. 10 random names.

Most active kbu bloggers hav been tagged la…nvm, tag them again lolz…

1. Joel

2. Ginger

3. Wei Khang

4. Woei Song

5. Calvin

6. Nicholas

7. Matilda

8. Jaevon

9. Jun Kai

10. Chan (not Ms Chan!!)

1. Would you date number 5?

Nah…he’s too tall

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?

Won’t la…he’s a gud driver & he’s got a superb supervisor…haha

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?

“Junkai, u really wan her? SURE??? Take her la, dun regret & cry to me later”

4. You come home and and your room has been ransacked by number 4.

Rush to the hostel & screw his room up

5. Number 1 is acting weird.

99% about #8…he’ll act normal again very soon

6. Numbers 3 & 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.

Haha cut chan’s hair ah!! I wanna join!!

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert.

Sure bo? I’ll take it without doubt

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.

Ask him to take #9 instead…I’ve been to those places too much

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.

Dun worry, he’ll be back for sure

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.

1 of the cops must be #1…I can’t think of other reason

11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie when he/her wrap his/her arm around you.

“thank you, I’m feeling very cold now”

12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.

Won’t happen…he’ll only call & ask : “can I come now & take chan’s rice?”

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.

Dun kacau him…he’s staring outside for pretty g***s XD

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can't sleep.

Dun kacau me la…go find sarah

15. You're walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.

He’ll hit harder after he noticed who I’m walking with…WTF???

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.

Oops, I’m not really good for this. “dun giv up an entire forest juz bcoz of a tree ok? But this tree is really a good tree, dun giv up so easily ya” so contradicting…

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.

**clap**clap**…the food sure taste good

18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.

“hey where did u get tat? Wat? U stole it??? Come, help me steal another one”

19. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.

u done playing & u wanna sell it rite? How much u wan?

20. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!

as If I’m not a child…COME LA!!

21. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.

Maybe…coz #8 is sooooo thin

22. Number 7 looks lonely.

So am I…for not going bak to hometown…

23. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.

Mayb his tooth fell off again & he wanna be alone to fix it…lolz jk jk

24. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.

Make sure u plan the present well oso

25. Number 6 decide to dye his/her hair black. What do you say to that?

Ha? The previous dye wore off ah?? Go dye it back faster, dun let ppl see ur white hair

26. Number 7 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where he/she went.

“oh shit…she’s going to kill ppl again…who the hell gave her the gun anyway???”

27. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.

Continue to sleep…ask him only after I’m awake

28. Numbers 1, 3, 5 and 6 all tackle you at once.

Waseh…need meh??? #5 be carefull oh, u’ll die kena himpit in the middle

Tony wants to go back sdk & EAT!!!