anx·i·e·ty
aNGˈzīədē/
noun
- a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome."he felt a surge of anxiety"
It's been a year since i felt such anxiousness. Not ever since I entered the workforce, or ever since I completed all the exams and assignment due dates. That being said, the last time I felt such, I remembered was the day I interviewed for the current company I worked for. Of course, the same was experienced for all other interviews I attended before this.
And tonight, the feeling strikes again. That uneasiness, that nauseous + stomachache feeling, they're all back. I'm going to do something I've never done before - 21km half-marathon for the first time ever. Heck, I've never even ran a fun run or a 10km marathon before, and straight away, shot towards 21km? I'm definitely doomed. To top it off, it starts at 3am in the midnight under the chilly night and somehow-feel-like-it-will-rain weather?? This is definitely not good.
But then, I remembered a quote : "If you want something you never had, you'll have to start doing something you've never done". So there, this might be a good chance for me to start "exploring" what I've never done before and start doing it/them to achieve something I've never achieved before.
Wish me luck people! Let's see if I can bring back that finisher medal & brag!!
p/s : nope, writing all these out doesn't ease the anxiety at all. not even a tiny little bit. and my hands are kind of trembling by the time I reach here....
p/s : nope, writing all these out doesn't ease the anxiety at all. not even a tiny little bit. and my hands are kind of trembling by the time I reach here....
