Saturday, November 21, 2015

Anxiety

anx·i·e·ty
aNGˈzīədē/
noun
  1. a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.
    "he felt a surge of anxiety"

It's been a year since i felt such anxiousness.  Not ever since I entered the workforce, or ever since I completed all the exams and assignment due dates. That being said, the last time I felt such, I remembered was the day I interviewed for the current company I worked for.  Of course, the same was experienced for all other interviews I attended before this.

And tonight, the feeling strikes again.  That uneasiness, that nauseous + stomachache feeling, they're all back. I'm going to do something I've never done before -  21km half-marathon for the first time ever.  Heck, I've never even ran a fun run or a 10km marathon before, and straight away, shot towards 21km?  I'm definitely doomed.  To top it off, it starts at 3am in the midnight under the chilly night and somehow-feel-like-it-will-rain weather?? This is definitely not good. 

But then, I remembered a quote : "If you want something you never had, you'll have to start doing something you've never done".  So there, this might be a good chance for me to start "exploring" what I've never done before and start doing it/them to achieve something I've never achieved before.

Wish me luck people!  Let's see if I can bring back that finisher medal & brag!!

p/s : nope, writing all these out doesn't ease the anxiety at all.  not even a tiny little bit.  and my hands are kind of trembling by the time I reach here....

Monday, August 31, 2015

Commitment

如果所有事都要百分之百肯定自己做得到才答应,那这世界有很多事都不用做不用想。
If you needs to be 100% sure on everything only then you will commit to it, then there're so many things in this world you wont have to courage to think and to do.

为什么不可以反过来想 因为你答应了她,所以你很想尽力做好。
Why not think about it in another way - because you've promised her, that motivates you to do your best.

如果你有一件事你不想做的话,你一定会找到借口。
If you really dislike doing it, you'll always be able to find an excuse for it.


相反,如果那件事你想做,你一定会找到办法。
In contrary, if you really want to do it, you can always find the way.